I remember this someone he asked me kung anong favorite ko na song if ever may kakanta sa'kin sabi ko 'Out of My League' then sabi niya pagaaralan niya yung chords nito through his guitar I don't know kung bakit then sabi niya pag natutunan na daw niya paparinig niya sa'kin isn't it sweet? :"> Then after ilang days lang he said to me na okay na daw alam niya na yung mga chords sad to say hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa napapakinggan hahaha! XD Too bad nasayang effort niya.. If only. If only. :3
Epitome of a Perfect Dream Man katulad ni Drake Sebastian Palma bakit kasi sa wattpad lang sila nageexist? Tae. Nakakapanlumo. >0<! Mabuti pa sa world of fiction e nakakakita ka pa ng mga ganyang lalaki unlike sa real world bihira na.. Pambirang like life! :))
Exactly! -o- Honestly, dumaan na din ako sa ganyan maraming beses na fair pa na hindi pa ko nagkakaboyfriend (yata?) hahaha baliw! Love sucks kahit committed or hindi magdadaan talaga yang ganyang pangyayari sa buhay ng isang nagmamahal XD Masakit syempre part ng love ang masaktan e kung hindi magpapakatanga, masasaktan at hindi magkakamali paano matuto ang isang tao?
Ang isa sa mga napagdaanan ko na ay ang pagiging "Friendzoned'" Fck. Oo, masakit siya XD Yung tipong nagsasabi siya sa'yo kung gaano niya kamahal yung babae which is friend ko pa laslas na hahaha joke lang cliche lang e? ^0^ but seriously yun nga at wala kang magawa kung hindi suportahan siya at bigyan pa ng advice pero deep inside sobrang nasasaktan ka na at hindi mo masabi dahil hindi pwede. May mahal siyang iba, kaibigan ka lang. I almost spend a year bago makamoveon and luckily I survived. XD I'm having this feeling that I want to be in love but I don't want to. So effin' confusing, I know. I'm so confused right now. Honestly, times like this I want someone who will put out with my sh.ts and dramas to be able to cheer up me when I'm down. BUT (there's always a 'BUT') I don't want to experience anymore what I'd experienced in the past. It's so horrible I tell you. It's been 3 months since I had experienced that. The pain that lingers everywhere that stings so badly. The endless crying. The dramas. The sadness and longing that I need to cope up throughout a day. It's really hard to deal with that kind of pain and I have no choice but to keep it myself because I don't want to tell to anyone what I'm experiencing for. I don't want to experience that anymore. I remember, there's this time that I really like this guy, I know so and I can feel that he likes me too, he's a nice guy and he's been through a lot. I really do 'like' him but I don't want to let him know, or even have a clue about it. So I focus myself to other things just to forget that feelings I have for him. I don't know why I'm like this, Maybe I'm too scared (as usual) to be hurt or to hurt him. I'm too scared to fall in love again but somehow I want to be in love---again. I'm so confused maybe someday there's no confusion problems that I needed to be resolve.
I hate that feeling I get where I know that I want to break down and bawl but I can’t due to the endless questions that would follow and I wouldn’t be able to give answers. But tonight’s one of those nights where I just want to bawl. To cry where you just let everything you’ve been holding in, out; you hold nothing back because you’re tired of having to hold so much in. To cry to the point where no more tears are coming out, to the point to where I just feel -- NUMB. I hate being emotionally unstable I act like I don't give a fcvk about something but deep inside it kills me. This worries that bombards me all over again. This guilt that kills me. This longing lingers everywhere. This numbness...I freaking hate it. I don't know what to do anymore oh God save me I need someone who really sees me as me who will help me when I fall down like this. I'm trying my best to act cheerful to be happy to smile like I'm actually happy when the truth is...not. I suck up. I mess up everything. I'm sorry I'm not good enough :( The negativity hurts right now but maybe just maybe it’s making me a fighter. I'm thinking that I need to 'don’t always have to pretend to be strong.' There’s no need to prove that all the time, everything is going well. I shouldn’t be concerned of what other people are thinking. Right? Cry if I need to. It’s good to cry out all your tears. Because then, will you be able to smile again. God is stirring something in my heart but I don't know what it is, how it’s going to get out, or what it will look like, but I trust that He’s a faithful God and He’ll reveal what needs to be revealed in His timing. Papa God save me. I don't want to continue messing up everything. I don't want to be weak again please make me a strong person right now. Send me your angel so that he can guide and cheer me up the way you did. I need you. I need you.
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