I was watching a drama earlier and I cried for the drama. Then here comes the feeling wherein you end up having those sad thoughts you shouldn't be thinking about in the first place. I had thought about a past relationship and ended up crying. Not that I have a feelings for the guy still, it was more like feeling sorry for myself I had to go through all of that. I remember how I cried for regrets, what ifs, and what could have beens. Thinking about those times I can't help but think na ang pathetic talaga ng sixteen-year-old self ko. Napapawince ang present self ko tuloy every time it crosses my mind. That girl was so pathetic that time and unfortunately I'm that girl. Ang sarap sampalin. Seriously. Lol. But still, no regrets kasi kung walang nangyari na ganun, I won't learn to handle such things. And somehow I'm thankful that I came to experience that one 'yung mga nababasa ko lang at napapanood I meant. Ayan na oh, opportunity na to make my life interesting and novel-like. So I grabbed the chance, having no idea to how it will end. There're times na I'm thinking whether it's all part of the game or not.
I remember those days when I felt like excited and nervous at the same time. It seems like my mind can't focus, and my heart is trying to rip its way out of my chest. That dudes surely know how to charm a lady like me. One thing I realized tho... you can't just pretend to be sweet to someone and not actually fall for that person, even if it's only a little bit. I thought pure platonic lang talaga chillin' and such I even thought na gamay ko na ang flow ng story but then again boy was I wrong.

Bokeh effect, or is it just me? Nevermind the float and other things tho. It's kinda... messy. Haha!

Heart effect. Or blurry effect? Lol. It's a rainy Friday and I have no choice but to take a selfie, boredom strikes. :p Me and my bro had a (fun) ride early this morning. It's so cold and I have to take a shower and oh-kay imma stop blabbering. We enjoyed our time in silence but it's a comfortable one mind you. He even queried my type of songs. It's so weird daw. There's a korean pop, techno, rock, rnb, hiphop and what not. I say it's the perks of being a chic and he just gagged on me. Ugh. So annoying. But to be honest, I don't know if it's just me but I can feel the peace and solitude whenever I'm with him unlike before of course I'm not saying this mushy thought directly with him ang awkward kaya. I should've take a selfie of him! :p Anw, it won't hurt to try new things, aight? After all, people need change and I guess we somehow changed and it's for the better. :)