Sometimes, it was okay to let loose even if you looked like a bum in the eyes of other people.12/5/2014
November had been rough with me and I've been weighing the pros of cons that happened for the past few weeks. I experienced my downfall at the same time I learned a lot. So many epiphanies and lessons from a variety of different people. The past few days I make too many excuses and disappoints to many people. I know I fail a lot and decides too rashly. I was far cry from perfect. I knew that very well. This new territory keeps tilting making me lose my footing, falling down because I can barely even stand. I just want to give up. Wouldn't it be easy to just give up? To' stop hoping, to stop thinking, to stop breathing, to stop moving if it means not hurting?
The thought is almost tempting but I owe it to myself to make it all better. I think whats important is that were constantly in motion it doesn't matter if it takes us a week or a year as long as we don't let ourselves get stuck. I'm sorry for the former thought. I don't have to give up. All i need is a break. a short rest in between the exhausting laps i'm running. A time to let myself accept that I don't always have to be strong as long as I continue moving. To top all of this, I just want to wish for December to be good to me. I won't expect anything but I pray to God that everything will be okay. I hope. I pray. <3 |
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