Hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko I'm losing myself right now. I admit I'm not myself anymore. I'm wasted. I suck. I messed up everything :(I hate being fragile. Akala ko strong na ko pero hindi pa pala. Hinding-hindi. I hate being alone. I'm afraid of being alone but I guess I have to get used with that, yung mga taong akala ko hanggang huli nandiyan para sa'kin hindi din pala sila magsstay. Bakit ganun? Lagi na lang, I'll always left dumbfounded. Sometimes, I wanna know why the people that I love can put me in so much pain. I cried and felt desperate. There were times that I asked myself why everything is so hard. Why can’t I be happy? But then again, I remembered, do I really deserve to be happy? Even if I'm lonely or hurt, would that be an enough reason for me to ask happiness? Would that be an enough reason for people to stay by my side? Gustong-gusto kong ilabas tong emotions ko pero I guess eto lang ang way. I always have this issues na ayokong maging burden sa mga taong laging nandiyan, ayokong problemahin pa nila yung mga rants in life ko haha I know I'm such a mess.
Haaaay. Ang drama ko. Why oh why? :( Dad, help me please? I know aside from my family you're the one that will never ever leave me :)