The thought is almost tempting but I owe it to myself to make it all better. I think whats important is that were constantly in motion it doesn't matter if it takes us a week or a year as long as we don't let ourselves get stuck. I'm sorry for the former thought. I don't have to give up. All i need is a break. a short rest in between the exhausting laps i'm running. A time to let myself accept that I don't always have to be strong as long as I continue moving.
To top all of this, I just want to wish for December to be good to me. I won't expect anything but I pray to God that everything will be okay. I hope. I pray. <3