I'm a claustrophobic person and I know that I'm not too nice to talk to and I'm weird. I don't know how to keep a conversation going….ooh my! :( I know I'm boring that’s why some people leave our conversation hanging. I know. I really appreciate those person who never lose their interest on me. Those person who keeps on starting a conversation though I only smile and answer either yes or no. I'm awkward, I know. But still, thank you :) Those person who always trying to catch up to have an opportunity to talk to me cause honestly in real life I am such an incredibly awkward, shy little girl because I'm scared to tell anyone what I'm going through. I'm weird. I easily get hurt. I am a very sensitive person and I hate to admit this but seriously I'm fragile I thought I came off as a strong girl but I guess I'm wrong definitely! I'm not strong enough for myself. I just want to be a strong person. People love the strong ones, right? Because they can cling on them for help. And for once I wanted to be needed. I wanted to feel worthy. And people won’t leave me easily. Even though they don't like me they wont leave me easily cause they needed me. I'm in this whirlpool of self-hate and depression which has sucked me in and prevents me from reaching out. It's stopping me from opening my mouth and telling anyone. Maybe after all, its really not reasonable to think that people can handle my cynical and skeptical thoughts. I hope someday I can be able to stand up for myself. So, please, I need someone who can really help me because I don't want to carry on like this anymore. I will pray really really hard. Please God, make me a strong person in my next life. :>
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