A self-portrait shoot happened outside today courtesy of my mom lol. At first, I just wanna see the whole view of my hair so I take some photos. My camera is in low quality to be honest, haven't been able to fix my cam that I used in taking photos. Ugh. Anyway, I don’t remember the last time I did self-portraits. I just remember I stopped… Come to think of it, I think I stopped because I hardly ever liked how I looked in some photos. I even hate my smile. Sometimes I hate having my photos taken even if it’s just me taking them for myself) You see, my insecurity has gotten to a point where I don’t even do self-portraits anymore because I’m afraid of what I would think of myself after I’ve seen the photos. It was never about other people. I was my own worst critic. How the heck did I get to this point after years of preaching self-love and acceptance? I felt like an utter hypocrite. I decided that I missed the old me and I needed to bring back my old self again. Everyone has insecurities they deal with and this happens to be one of mine. I know I’m not alone, because nearly every girl deals with this shit. But I’m working on it, and hopefully I’ll find the motivation to really beat my insecurities and the unhealthy lifestyle I live. Soon, Ree, Soon.
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