Clingy. Why? Because I have a very few handpicked friends and I tend to stay it that way. When it comes to my friends, family, loved ones or those people who're close with me (be it personally or virtually) I'm territorial. It makes me upset whenever they ignore me and such. Oh yea, a very dramatic one.
Passive. Why? I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing but I'm a type of person whose passive. In my personal life, you can talk with me, (Yes, I'm speaking to no one in particular, since I'm just blogging for myself and I have no audiences. Yeah, I'm a very sad and solitary girl.) you can vent out your frustrations with me, share your problems with me, and the only thing I'll do is listen to you unless you want me to share my personal insights about you and your dilemmas but the problem is that I always have this gut feeling that the moment I voice out my skeptical thoughts you'll just find me annoying and loathsome so I'll just shut up my inner thoughts and keep it to myself. I'll just smile to you thinking yea, nice job Ree, you deserve an award for being such a lame friend.
What am I blogging this? 'Cause there's a part of me thinks that somehow I disappoint myself which is kinda upsetting. I'm disappointed because I thought I've changed but there's always part of me who're not changing and this is the part wherein I still can't be able to stand up with myself or even voice out my personal thoughts actively. I find it hard to show my true characters with others. I'm always prided myself in my ability to stay completely neutral behind the figurative walls I've put up around myself. And I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. If only I knew how but I guess, it's already in the past it's useless thinking of what-ifs and what-could-have-done-differently. Sighs. My personal life is very different with my social life. In my sns acct. I talk like I know what’s going on. But in real life I don’t.
I don’t know anything or even you. We’re young and we’re gonna screw-up a lot. We’re gona keep changing our minds and even sometimes our hearts. And through all that, the only thing we can truly offer each other is… forgiveness. I learned my lesson.Take chances… alot of them. Because honestly, no matter where you end up - and with who, it always ends up just the way it should be. Your mistakes make you who you are… you learn and grow with each choice you make. Everything is worth it. say how you feel - always. Be you, and be okay with it. It doesn’t matter what any other person thinks. In a world of comparison and conformity, make your own statement. Honor your own truth. Have the courage to be yourself; risk speaking your own thoughts and claiming your emotions. Share your vulnerabilities, tears, doubts, and insecurities; let others experience the real you. Have the courage to be yourself and realize that you are a wonderful person. Put this on your pretty little mind, Ree.