She wants a person that will always be on her side,someone that would always choose her over everyone else and would give up anything for her like she would for them. She wants to mean that much to someone, because it really hurts when you mean a lot to someone but they wouldn't do all those things for you. She just wants someone to put her first, is that too much to ask for?

Sometimes, I get the feeling that you’re doing it on purpose. Hurting me? Making me feel bad? And every punch of insult in between the time lapses? Oh please, through the years, I’ve grown immune to your immaturity.

Sometimes, I felt out of place, maybe it’s because I was born being an awkward girl who find it hard to mingle with everybody but the minute I met you I felt something different. I finally found what it felt to have a nice home. I finally found where I'm supposed to be and i'm going to be there for the longest of time. 

August is coming real quick and while I'm typing this I feel quite nostalgic and at at the same time grateful. The past few months feels like a one heck of  a roller coaster ride for me. Mixed emotions, mixed dilemmas, and mixed memories but I believe everything happens for a reason. I've made my fair share of mistakes and I'm so guilty because of that but on a positive note I've learned from it. I've made a new set of memories with people around me and most especially I'm at the happiest because of someone I've met. I learned that it's not about who just come or who was there for a long time, it's about the feelings that you know it's real. Everything feels like too good to be true and I'm honestly scared of what tomorrow will brings but I honestly don't care about my doubts or my worries or my fears anymore. Papa God has a plan and whatever happens I know it's all God's will. I lift up everything to him, my problems, family, friends, school, resources, my sun and my stars, my happiness, sorrows and all. I don't what to become a pessimist once again because I have my back-ups. This month will be great, I pray, I hope, and I believe. Faith in God. <3