The sun seems to be playing hooky because the weather is unnaturally cool today usually it's a little more humid perhaps it's already the start of ber months. Clouds over the sky, shielding us from the sun which peaks out behind them. Maybe there is hope for me to be a little happy. Seize the day.

You shall rejoice in all the good things the Lord your God has given to you and your household.  

Thank you Papa God! :) Thank you for giving me such mom whose willing to support my whims and caprices. Lels. 

i. Do you ever think about your future?
ii. Nah, not really. Why?
i. So you never think about settling down with  someone and having a life?
ii. Maybe. I don't know. I guess.
i. Do you want a family?
ii. I'm only eighteen buddy, I have years to think about that. I'll be fucked if i'm gonna sit here and plan my life out now.
i. What if you didn't?
ii. Huh?
i. What if you didn't... have years to think about it. What if you only had one? What would you do?
ii. Uh, I'd never thought about that. I'd always assumed I'd have all the time in the world. It felt as if I'd never move past the age of eighteen, like i'd forever be at this point in life.
i. Figures. But, back to the question, what would you do if you only had a year to live?
ii. Honestly, I had no idea.
i. Of course, you have. You are just afraid to sort it out.
ii. Can we not talk about this?
i. You know what i'd do?
ii. What? 
i. I'd tell that one person who I spent every moment thinking about that I loved them that'd be enough for me.
ii. That's so... mushy.
i. Well, just stating facts.
ii. Uh,huh. 
i. You're hiding something tho.
ii. Am not.
i. That's fine. Because you don't tell everyone everything. 
ii. Yea? There are some things that are better left unsaid. 
i. But some things just need to be said.
ii. Oh-kay? You're starting to creep me out. What's that anyway? 
i. Have I told you recently that I love you? I love every moment I spent with you. 

You'll realise that not everything you want to do is what you need to do, and not everything you love is what you need. We've got an adventure in our hands and we're wasting it all by being some kind of clueless fish in the vast ocean that go everywhere and nowhere all at once. I just haven't found it yet, my one great adventure though.

Clearly, everything that lives, dies. Sad though that not all those who die have lived. Perhaps these two were just a season that comes and goes. There’s something very lonely about that. And I missed thee, little ones. 'Till we meet again. <3