I've been thinking about it a lot lately. I know the Lord has plan for us all, but sometimes I just don't understand what the message can be. But maybe, things were not meant to be understood all the time. I think that sometimes we just have to have Faith. The Lord listens to our prayers. Just learn to talk with Him. Never forget that Lord is our friend. And like all friends He longs to hear what's been happening in our life. Good or bad whether it been full of sorrow or anger, and even when we're questioning why terrible things have to happen. Though we can't hear Him answering by the means of our ears but to this place >> "<3" we can hear the answers. I have faith that God will shows me the answers. Sooner rather than later. Just feel the God's presence. I know He's always there lingering his presence with us. I trust you, Dad. :--)
So happy! :----) Gonna spend this day in reading, reading, reading and reading! Ohh yeaaaaaa! ^0^4/12/2013
I find it corny every time I'm sharing my personal heed here in my site but oh well kaya ko nga ginawa to as a channel outside everything so yea I'll just free my thoughts and share my emotions here :---)
Honestly, I'm incredibly awkward and I know it most especially if I'm talking to a guy (but of course exception to the rule yung mga ka-close ko) so I really do appreciate this guy even though my words are in monosyllabic mode and smile lang ang sinasagot ko he always tries to open a topic. However, It's so awkwardddddddd and I hate it. I'm not comfortable in the ambiance. I'm not used to that kind of freakin' awkward scenario so I guess I look stupid while talking with him. What can I say? That's me. And seriously speaking, as much as possible I don't want him to fall in love with a weird girl like me because I cannot promise If I can give back anything to him.. I'm not the one for him and I don't know how to say the words I'm feeling towards him. Minsan kasi may mga feelings talaga na hindi kayang isalin sa salita makakasakit lang. I don't want to hurt him, I know how it feels to be broken so I don't want to risk his heart for someone like me. No please. I can't fathom to see anyone whose hurting because of me. It's not worth it. Arghh. What to do? :--( I love my Mom so much. She's the best mom in the whole world. :--) Si mommy, hanggat kaya niya ibibigay niya talaga. Never siyang nagdamot lalo na kung para sa'kin, para sa'min. At lahat ginagawa niya maibigay lang ang gusto ko kahit hindi ko naman talaga masyadong kailangan basta gusto ko lang. Never din niya akong sinaktan physically kung papagalitan niya man ako wala pang 30 mins bati na kami nun haha! Though, I admit minsan nagtatampo ako sa kanya but ganun naman siguro talaga diba? Wala namang perfect relationship e. I can't fathom to see her crying pinakaayokong nakikita 'yun kasi deep inside me mas nasasaktan ako. Ayokong nakikitang nasasaktan si Mommy at Daddy e weakness ko 'yan. Ayokong-ayoko lalo na kung ang magiging dahilan ay ako. I know, mom always thought na mas mahal ko si daddy e kasi daddy's girl talaga ko haha! but noooo same lang yung amount nung love ko sa kanila kaya nga minsan alam ko na nagtatampo din si mommy sa'kin e sigh. But most importantly, thankful ako kasi siya ang Mommy ko. Kapag may mga times na down ako siya lang yung napagsasabihan ko e I remember one time broken ako nun then she asked me what happened I just kept on silent then tears rolled down my face and she didn't bother to asked me more she just stared at me and then hugged me. That's my mom. :---) Mommy, sorry for all the troubles this crybaby had cause you. I love you Mommy. Infinite of it. :*
And I hate it they are so plump. Arrgh. Pano kaya mababawasan ang mga fats sa cheeks? HAHAHA LOL XDD
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