"Commit to the LORD whatever you do and your plans will succeed."- Proverbs 16:3
Its ridiculous how so much of your future depends on how successful you are as a teenager. And because of that I'm terribly terribly afraid with a lot of things. I mean a fcking lot of things. Talk about my greatest fear? It's losing my parents without giving them the best. So as much as possible I want to fix up everything yet I don't have a courage to do that or I'm just being pessimist? I procrastinate so much I'll probably put off death and never die. Honestly, my time is almost running out. :--( It seems like I lost track in time. I don't know if I do it intentionally or not but I'm so confused. Confused of what I'm going to do. What decision I will made. What path I will take. Sometimes to get something you've never had you have to do something you've never done. I'm still waiting for a sign Papa God. I really don't know what to do :(( I smile and act like nothing is wrong, its called putting shit aside and being strong.. Looking okay but deep inside I'm lost in time. They say, when life changes to be harder change yourself to be stronger because sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together. Life can be unfair sometimes, but that's no reason to give up on it. Sigh. I just want everything to be okay... and I'm hoping that sooner rather than later It will. I TRUST PAPA GOD. He will never put me through anything I can't handle. He will strengthen me/ Maybe I will stay positive because good things will happen. Good vibessss all the waaaaaaaaaaay. :)))
"Commit to the LORD whatever you do and your plans will succeed."- Proverbs 16:3 1. Think of your body as the vehicle to your dreams. Honor it. Respect it. Fuel it. 2. Create a list of all the things your body lets you do. Read it and add to it often. 3. Become aware of what your body can do each day. Remember it is the instrument of your life, not just an ornament. 4. Create a list of people you admire: people who have contributed to your life, your community, or the world. Consider whether their appearance was important to their success and accomplishments. 5. Walk with your head held high, supported by pride and confidence in yourself as a person. 6. Don’t let your weight or shape keep you from activities that you enjoy. 7. Wear comfortable clothes that you like, that express your personal style, and that feel good to your body. 8. Count your blessings, not your blemishes. 9. Think about all the things you could accomplish with the time and energy you currently spend worrying about your body and appearance. Try one! 10. Be your body’s friend and supporter, not its enemy. 11. Consider this: your skin replaces itself once a month, your stomach lining every five days, your liver every six weeks, and your skeleton every three months. Your body is extraordinary--begin to respect and appreciate it. 12. Every morning when you wake up, thank your body for resting and rejuvenating itself so you can enjoy the day. 13. Every evening when you go to bed, tell your body how much you appreciate what it has allowed you to do throughout the day. 14. Find a method of exercise that you enjoy and do it regularly. Don’t exercise to lose weight or to fight your body. Do it to make your body healthy and strong and because it makes you feel good. Exercise for the Three F’s: Fun, Fitness, and Friendship. 15. Think back to a time in your life when you felt good about your body. Tell yourself you can feel like that again, even in this body at this age. 16. Keep a list of 10 positive things about yourself--without mentioning your appearance. Add to it! 17. Put a sign on each of your mirrors saying, “I’m beautiful inside and out.” 18. Choose to find the beauty in the world and in yourself. 19. Start saying to yourself, “Life is too short to waste my time hating my body this way.” 20. Eat when you are hungry. Rest when you are tired. Surround yourself with people that remind you of your inner strength and beauty.http://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/nedaDir/files/documents/handouts/20WaysTo. Sad life is sad. Sometimes.. I really can't understand them.. but don't get me wrong I love them so much. So much that I'll always do whatever it takes for them to be proud of me, yet there comes this moment when you will realized the things that you want to do in your life and not for what they're saying for you to do so. I'll admit I'm not a perfect daughter but I'm good at least I think I am. All my life I'm always following them even though I don't want to do it just for the sake of being a good daughter I will but this time? I'm so..frustrated. I don't know. This is the only thing na hinihingi ko pero bakit hindi pa din nila ko mapagbigyan? :| I've got to make this life makes sense y'know. Minsan kasi hindi din naman maiiwasan na maiisip mo na bakit ang daming bawal? Bakit ganito? Bakit ganyan? Bakit ang strict nila? :\ I know they only want what's best for me that's why I'm so lucky to have them but I really can't get it, sometimes I think they become too overboard with that treatment.. I really love them but how about my own life? My own wants? My own decisions? I know I'm not really sure if positive ang magiging results nung hinihingi ko pero hindi ko malalaman ang sagot kung hindi ako magtatake risk right? Ahhhhh! Naguguluhan ako. What to do? Papa God, help? SOS! SOS! Mayday! Mayday! Uwaaaaaaa. Huhuhuhu. I don't know what will I do in my life seriously perhaps maybe perhaps God can save me. Just a chanceHaaaay sometimes I hate being a good person, I always get fucked over. :--(
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